I recently heard from a woman who, in addition to being a good friend of mine, is also a serious student of spiritual and energetic healing, and has worked with me many times over the years. Over the course of a few days recently she raised some questions about the process she was going through and I answered in an exchange of emails.
I thought others might benefit from reading our exchange and she graciously agreed to let me publish it. For the sake of her privacy I’m referring to her by the initials FC.
May you find it interesting, encouraging and valuable in your own healing process!
FC wrote:
I “almost” called you yesterday to run something by you…
Have gotten in touch with some rage as of late (and better late than never).
Even though it is extremely unpleasant, I sense that I must honor its force (how does one “honor” a tsunami?) because it brings valuable information albeit in a dramatic way. My question is about discerning how long to honor it. There is a concern that if I let go too soon, I might forget or overlook the information it brings. On the other hand, if I hold onto to it too long, it can do damage to me physically and emotionally. Any thoughts or opinions…?
Reply from me:
On rage –
What damages is the suppression or EXpression of it (the latter meaning acting on it), NOT feeling it fully. So don’t worry about the time.
Think of yourself as a tsunami and expand (be the wave) by breathing into your solar plexus – you may also use your voice and your limbs (in a safe way).
Eventually (and it usually doesn’t take that long) one of two things – maybe both – will happen:
1) the anger will dissipate as you begin to feel much bigger than the injustice committed against you, and/or
2) you’ll get in touch with the belief about yourself that created the anger and have something to work on clearing/shifting (with EFT, Healing Codes, whatever).
The whole process can actually feel quite liberating.
FC:
I must be doing something right because I’ve experienced both of the outcomes you mentioned by staying with the tsunami. However, I take “exception” to the word injustice in the singular; for the wave to be so large its origin was traced to multiple injustices over many years. Although the initial injustice may have been the most damaging, the subsequent ones only seemed to deepen the original wound, so to speak.
And so it is hard for me to feel that I am larger than the injustices. Also, I have a Christ complex, for lack of a better word. I often feel that I have taken on a level of pain very deeply so that others may be spared on some level. I think you know me well enough to realize this is not coming from a place of ego. It may just be that this belief emerged along the way to help me tolerate my particular circumstances, that by dedicating it to a higher purpose rather than an orgy of self-pity, I was in fact transmuting the pain….
Of course I believe that with the current changes on the planet, we, as a species no longer require suffering as a learning tool. If that is the case, why am I still “doing” suffering? Perhaps(answering my own question), I am near the end of this wave and feel pulled strongly by the outgoing tide. And the good news, if there is any, is that I have progressed to suffering/struggling mindfully.
Yours for the greater good, 🙂
Me:
I hear you and understand about the “Christ complex” as you call it.
As we are all powerful creators, whatever you believe about where you are with it IS true for you! Once you have a new belief, the experience will change. Your soul really does want you to feel great, which requires changing some beliefs.
Today I realized that I still had a belief that I deserve punishment (because several things have happened that have felt like that).
So I decided to install the new belief that I am done with punishment. I just held the intention until my subconscious aligned itself with the new belief and gave me a confirming signal). Lo and behold a lot of the lower emotions disappeared. You might want to try the equivalent of that for yourself.
I’ll talk with you again soon.
Love and light,
Ellen
P.S. I’ll be very happy to read your comments!